Weekly Update: The New Project

You find me fresh from a meeting with my tutor, J, today. Well, actually, it was about an hour ago, now and I’m not feeling so fresh (lack of sleep) but, you know. Fresh-ish. The meeting went well and I have a new project. I don’t want to jinx it by going into too much detail but it’s going to be gothic. And good, if I can pull it off. I’m mostly worried that I won’t be able to but we’ll see. In my head it’s good. I’ve only got bits and pieces at the moment and I’m a little scared of working on it with any amount of intensity in case it turns out not good. It feels very fragile at the moment. Also I’m a little afraid of getting sucked in. It won’t be a pleasant thing to be sucked into. But we’ll see.

Either way I’m feeling a lot better about this course. For the first time since I got in I actually feel like I deserve to be here. And for the first time since beginning the course, like I’ll get a lot out of it. But you know how it goes, one minute you’re up and everything is great – your project is the best thing ever and everything’s going to be different and the next your down again and everything is awful – your project is shit, you’re shit and nothing’s going to change. Honestly, I was really positive about an hour ago. Someone even said I looked chuffed. But I’ve lost my favourite pen and I think that’s thrown me. I wanted to get back and write with it but could not find it anywhere. I tried writing with my other fountain but it’s just not the same. It seems like a bad omen or something. That and the dream I had last night, in which I had another amazing idea (as in I had an idea in the dream not just I had a dream which could be an idea) but I can’t now really remember. There were wolves and blood and axes and a snow/ice child. That’s all I’ve got. But I was really excited about it in the dream.

Shall I ramble on a bit longer? Nah. It’ll just be more of the list of what I’m scared about concerning this novel, now. For example, I want to work on it but I’m not sure how. I know I’m not ready to write but should I pre-write? Read? Research? All of the above or could some of it damage it. I’m worried about being too influenced at this stage. Do you know what I mean? The writers out there might. I hope. I hope it’s not just me.

Also Riddley Walker. Yeah. All I’m gonna say about Riddley is it had better be worth it in the end. Otherwise…

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K thanks bye




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